My sweet little Henry turns one tomorrow. As always I'm spending the night before a first birthday a little teary eyed. Crying over what exactly? I don't think I know for sure but I do know that every birthday is a bittersweet reminder to me that they're growing up. It already hurts my heart that I won't have these little munchkins with me -like this- forever. They'll grow up and stop letting me snuggle them and kiss on their sweet little cheeks and I will be oh so sad. The sweet little moments we had today with just the four of us all snuggled in bed. Each of us giggling and tickling and bouncing the others. Playing ball at the park and sliding on the slides. It's days like these that I can't get enough of.
The first year is always so hard and I always think I'll be so relieved when it's done and I am. There's always the sadness that accompanies the relief though. Relief that I no longer have to worry about SIDS- even though I have to start worrying about cars hitting them and falling down stairs and running away in busy stores(There's always something to keep us mom's worried). Relief at the independence they now have. They no longer need you every waking moment. Then comes the sadness because your little baby is growing up and they don't need you every waking moment and you don't know if you're quite ready for that.
Henry has been such a sweet little addition to our family. I remember well the ride to the emergency room that early summer morning. I remember thinking we were going to lose him and not knowing how I would deal with the loss. I wasn't even very far along; just 12 weeks but I remember crying and crying and crying while Wyatt gave me a blessing and we drove to the hospital. It's amazing how quickly we fall in love with these sweet babies. I remember them telling us at 20 weeks that we no longer had to worry, that everything had healed and that we were having another sweet, sweet little boy. I remember well the week before I had him. I spent a few of Josh's nap times just crying because I didn't know if I was ready for my time with just the two of us to end. Having Henry was the best thing that could ever have happened to us.
Henry and Josh are as different as brothers could be. My little yin and my little yang. Outside of liking the outdoors, people, balls, not sleeping and getting into things they couldn't be more different. He was the perfect balance to our little family. My mellow little man. I can't believe that a little over a year ago we didn't even know this sweet little boy and his cute personality. He is so funny about everything. Talking in his own little language and just taking things little by little. Except for jumping out of his highchair of course. He's started to talk but it takes him a little while to work into a word. He says Mom, Dad, Josh, Me, catch, ball, dog, uh oh and probably more that I can't think of. He mimmicks words a lot but has a hard time sticking to certain words over and over. He wants to be held all day every day and loves to snuggle. He loves loves loves people, animals, balls, books and slides. He just barely got over most of his anxiety of the swing. He loves his Daddy and snuggling with him and thinks that Josh is the funniest person alive. Those two are the best of friends. Especially when Josh isn't beating up on him. Thankfully he has the stranger danger that Josh never had. He definitely shows his preference for things and throws a little fit when he doesn't like something. He crawls- now walks as fast as humanly possible at the first sound of the bath and cries if we take him out early. He is sweet as can be and mellow but oh so active. Two things I never thought could go together. Church is quite the circus with him moving EVERYWHERE. I'm sure everyone around us is grateful for the entertainment ;) He still doesn't sleep- of course- a family trait Wyatt and I seem to have a certain knack for creating. He's a little thumb sucker. My dream come true. I have always loved little thumb suckers. It's amazing how fast this little boy has stolen my heart away. I can't believe how this year has flown. Oh how we love our sweet little Henry. Happy First Birthday Baby Boy!!!
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